Cold water weighs less than hot water.

Well today, I just have me myself and my blog. I feel like I have soooo much inside me that I just want to let out ,but no one wants to listen. I just want someone to listen to me. Why won't anyone talk to me?! Joshua just hung up on me for Franchely. I have no problem that he did ,but I do have a problem that we didn't have much time to talk. Maybe I don't deserve to be his friend. You know that despite anything, despite our bickering and disagreements, we are just still friends. I had no one to talk ever : ( I ACTUALLY tried calling Kevin. Kevin of all people! He and I haven't had a conversation in AGES! : P I tried calling him cause he has nothing better to do plus he probably has no one to talk to. Guess I was wrong since he didn't pick up at all. So yeah. After that I called Winston and was able to talk to him for like 3 minutes. We didn't even talk. We just stayed on the phone till his dad came on the phone and just said he needed the phone.... So yeah.

Aloof . I guess I don't really blame anyone for not talking to me. I sometimes isolate myself from everyone else. Just push them away when they try to get close. I don't know ? Eh I sometimes just make it awkward with another person. Eh I'm so gay : ((( Why can't I make friends easily or ATLEAST keep the ones I have now! :((

Well today... boring. I suck at volleyball : ((( BADLY. Sometimes I regret being with Winston. Like we were playing volleyball together and he just doesn't have the same feeling we have together. Like we were playing and he was so emotionless. Like as if I was just another girl there playing. As if I wasn't his girlfriend. : ( Also, after school, Like all the time he always like goes away from me. Like to talk to everyone else. I'm sorry that I'm so CLINGY! I used to be clingy to someone else now, I sorta have nobody. Like geeeeeeeeez, I sometimes wonder why he's still with me. I'm not worth his time. Sometimes I think me and him aren't going to last. Like this might just be a waste of time. I just should stay single and fat forever.

Today I felt so fat. I'm pretty sure it was my pants that did it. But either way It still didn't change the fact that I am fat : ( I want to do something about it. Winston wants me too. but everythingI do doesn't work. Winston thinks I'm not trying hard enough but EH! I hate him : (

ALSO! He still hasn't asked me : ( UHM.... Scavenger hunt is off. Mall just to shop instead. Wendys for roses? Bake a cake at Winstons ? Don't feel like going. It's not like he cares.... Too obsessed with his stupid game. UHM. Doing the baby thing tomorrow for lab. Uhm, I might no sign up for that nurses thing cause I am getting lazy. & yeah.


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MOOD CHANGE! :P Don't think I'm bipolar!

Oh wait guys a few things happened today! I took a random drug test that I had to pee in a cup. I'll explain! lol. Well like I got called to the nurses office from math and yeah blah blah blah. SO they tell me I have to pee in a cup. So I get in the bathroom and I don't need to pee. So then I just sit and wait. They FORCED me to drink water TONS AND TONS of little tiny cups. Like about 4 in tall. Well like yeah. I'm drinking. I meet a girl who I have no clue what her name is. I talk to Gabe for a bit. ALOT OF people are asking me about what happened in the nurse cause they see me by the door. soo yeah... lol. So After the 283947293847 th cup I have to pee. Actually I hold it in abit so I miss some of U.S1 cause I HATEEEEEEEEE IT! : PPP So yeah. I actually have enough pee to fill the cup. When you see the cup you think that it's maad big but in reality it was small. When holding it you think it's BIG! lol. Well I had enough to like pee up to where it needs to be and also! MORE! Actually it was over flowing so i had to throw some out .! LOL. Embarassing to tell but, don't care. It was in abathroom. in the nurses office just incase you were like my sister thinking why am I peeing on the floor! LOL.
Also Winston gave me a cookie before gym class<33 cuutie!
ALSO! number in gym-29! I think : Pppp

going to go. I have to change to mad scientist torture for my essay. My hell. Cause I need to use the 5 senses to write something.